Morning Musings

MMMM a delicious shake and a chilly morning. The birds are chirping and the highway is buzzing. Leaves are falling in beautiful colors making their majestic tree owners look forlorn. Oh Hi, I'm so glad you have decided to join me in my morning musings, no matter what time it is on your side of the screen. I feel grateful to my Lord for allowing me another day to serve him in this life, while hoping that He will come for us soon to take us to that new Jerusalem. As seen in my last post I have been all at odds with myself and I find myself in sympathy with many passages of Paul's writing to the churches. So many times throughout his messages he refers to the conflict between flesh and spirit. But this morning one passage caught my eye in Philipians 4:10-13:
10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly that now at last your care for me has flourished again; though you surely did care, but you lacked opportunity. 11 Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: 12 I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. 13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
It seems to me as though Paul is saying that in spiritual things he is commanded to abound, to be full and fruitful, but in carnal, fleshly things to be abased, hungry, and to suffer need. What a fitting place to say "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." For without Christ I would miserably fail and never measure up to what my Father expects of me. So again I realize that I will constantly be in this limbo of thought and feeling but I will still be resolved to win the race. For it is not the failings that will get me there but the getting up that will help me win.

nonsense

I want to write but I wist not what. I feel the need but ken not how. I begin and then know not when. I am sure of a friend but understand not who. The place is there but I comprehend not where. This I am but I can tell not why.

Hmmmmm

I know its an interesting title. Maybe it's because I missed class today or maybe it is because I am not too worried about it. Hmmmmm. That is exactly how I feel. Like an outsider looking in and wondering what will become of this day, this week, this month, this year, this life. Somewhat in anticipation and somewhat in idol curiosity (if there is such a thing), I await the events that will come. What kinds of actions and reactions will happen. Should I be worried or should I accept what comes my way. Am I making the right choices or will I soon crash. I am of the opinion that when things all seem to be going downhill fast, I am often exactly where God wants me to be. So I wonder am I right? Have I lost my mind, or am I just choosing to trust? Maybe sometimes they are the same thing and God understands and will work it out in the end. Of course, I know He will. He has never failed yet. I just wonder at the journey. This must be the peace and joy that passes understanding. When things all seem to be going wrong but you are not worried in fact you anticipate great things to happen all the same.

A plan for the day

I find myself in need of a list. I have been wasting time frivolously lately, and I must make a plan to actually accomplish more than one simple class assignment today. This seems like a good place to make lists and record my doings.
1. Practice Piano
2. Clean out car
3. Complete my Spanish story and take quiz
4. Make Shauna's present
5. Do laundry.

That seems pretty good.

This bubble has weathered the storm of depression and by depending on God is now out of the danger zone. I haven’t popped yet and I am as resilient as ever. As bubbles often do I am flying high to another adventure. I am back in school and I have 2 classes (a relief from the normal 4-5). I am taking Spanish IV and ASL III. Both of these are fairly easy classes although their subjects aren’t as easy to master. Estoy trabajando mucho a mi español y mi ASL.

My mother has started her own Etsy store and has one item to sell so far but she is working on posting several other items soon. She has become a scrapbooking fanatic and is making beautiful minis and cards and things. I am supposed to be helping but haven’t done much so far. I plan to start soon.

Lethargy, Procrastination, Overall fatigue

Okay so I haven't been doing too great the last week or so. I seem to want to either sleep or do nothing all the time and have no energy or self-motivation to get done with what needs to be done. Thankfully I have done all homework assignments faithfully, but today I really am struggling to function. I will use the 15 minute strategy from flylady.net, and I know it will help, but I'm really concerned about this fatigue I have that doesn't seem to want to go away. I have never been one to sleep an exorbitant amount of hours but lately I can fall asleep anytime, anywhere and sleep for hours. It doesn't help that I have a pinched nerve in my back and I strained a muscle in the back of my thy. Ah well I feel like I am complaining over much. Nonetheless, its true and I needed to put it down somewhere. I needed to be honest with myself and my friends so that I can defeat this thing. I will take strength from God's word today.

Philippians 4:13- I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

And I will let this chorus take me through.

I'm an over-comer,
Always the victor
I refuse to be defeated
No matter how high a mountain
I must climb
I'm an over-comer
and the victory will be mine.

New, Old, Timeless

Friends should fit

A little bit

New and old,

Close or cold

In or out,

With and without.

But Thankfully some

They will always come

Complex and mussy

A little fussy

Unexpected and

As timeless as the sand.

These we know

Cannot go

Near or far,

Cannot mar

What we feel,

No one can  steal.